Written on 2/22/24

How are you today? My answer is “Today is a good day” 

It has been A WHILE since I’ve posted and I’m sorry for that. I started a job for a while and got out of the flow of posting, I was writing, but not posting. So, it was hard for me to get back into the swing of things, but this one seemed fitting.

So, why is today a good day are you asking? - I have no job, I’ve been turned down for many, MANY, can I say actually hundreds of JOBS. My husband stresses about our financial state, constantly. My youngest daughter is a preteen, emotional, and upset from bullies in her school. I also had to cancel her Christmas present Spring break trip to California where she was to fly on an airplane for the first time. I am fighting and binding feelings of fear, failure and anxiety at every turn. I don’t know how we’ll pay bills next month, but I know we will. I need to do so much around this house and I’m tired a lot. I claim restoration of health, yet, I see the effects of covid lingering on my body. I am desperate to help my church more so we can move into our new building, but there are set backs. And… a lot of people need help right now in a myriad of ways.

So, I am going to tell you as I type with a confident, genuine big fat smile on my face: Today is a good day. 

I am aware of yet not worried about a single one of these things. My anxiety levels are at a normal state. Philippians 4:6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

I can’t see my next step, I can’t see what tomorrow holds, but I know my Father has me held in His hand. I have a solid belief in things that are unseen - a CONFIDENT TRUST that my Jesus has me in His hands, has my family in His hands. This simple fact alone, and I truly do mean this simple fact alone, has all my fears gone. 

Inside my brain, I want to be a stress ball or a nutcase freaking out about the state of all the things.. Matthew 6:34 “Therefore, do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.” Like I noted above, our country is nearly at war, our political future is a mess, we have a lot of things to worry about, right? But seriously… no worry happening here. Cool as a cucumber… I can only add to my troubles, not takeaway, so why worry about it? If I can’t help it, what can my anxiety or worry do? My confidence in Jesus is much more help than any worry is.

This is the power of our God. 

I am tired of living in the state of fear or letting fear have any hold on my life. I’m at a point where I refuse to allow fear any foothold over me. We have calamity on our doorstep every day of the week, BUT GOD! I am OK today knowing that If I am living for God and I find myself resting my head on my pillow tonight, I am grateful. And if I am living for God with all I am and I lose my life, I am OK with that. Because I gave everything for HIM. I leave it all on the court - so to speak. I am trying to live a life where I just give it my all each day, and ask God to give me HIS STRENGTH to get through each day so I can leave all of that on the court, because mine is just not sufficient.

We are commanded to not fear anything but God Himself. Psalm 56:11 I God I trust; I will not fear. What can man do to me? The revelation that fearing anything but God is a sin was a powerful one for me and one I had to really wrestle with with Him and also submit to Him; then I repented. I have a daily choice to fear the world or fear God. 2 Timothy 1:7 For God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control. And every day I am choosing God. Every day, I thank God that He is going ahead of me and working things for my good. I thank Him for what He is doing in me, things seen and unseen and ask Him to forgive me for when I fail Him. I thank Him in the trials and in peace. 

I thank Him for who I am. As imperfect as I am, I am HIS. And I am being used for HIS GOOD. All of this has a purpose even if we can’t see it yet. My mess is HIS message.

Today is a good day. Even if you just have wake up and tell yourself that today. Today is a good day. 

Make today a good day.